I’m doubting the seeds I’ve planted again
I’m sitting in a lawn chair watching my bunny trim back my perennials with his teeth. I can hear the birds communicating, and my neighbor mowing his lawn. There is peace and there is peril. The threat not yet defined, but felt.
My husband is inside with our 3 dogs so my bunny can have free roaming time in total comfort. And so he doesn’t get turned into a chew toy by 2/3 dogs. I’m not exactly sure if our puppy would tear him apart or not.
They’ve met a few times before and even played a bit. Puppies grow quickly and so does their rambunctious and sometimes aggressive nature. I don’t have the bandwidth to figure that out right now, and I really don’t want to lose another bunny this year.
The magic in being alone
In ways, I treat myself worse when I’m left to my own devices. At least to what I put into my body. I do however, spend time with spirit. I think that’s what I would call it. I was raised on God and Jesus. Still making sure I capitalize the names.
I don’t know exactly when I lost that belief, but it wasn’t all at once. I’m still forming my opinions about what I believe is beyond this life. I’m 28, I should be questioning these things. An always developing awareness. It’s my choice if I want to challenge what I thought I knew with new information. A courage I’ve come to realize.
How hobbies helped me grow
Don’t overlook the value of what hobbies can bring to your life, just because you don’t feel that you are doing them right.